I am restless...till I rest in you God....

So it's 12:15 am on a Wednesday morning...and here I sit in my bed not able to sleep. I sit here listening to "Restless" by Audrey Assad...somehow it seems that God is soothing my soul tonight with this song.
It seems that I have been restless lately in my walk and in my heart. Somehow that is being soothed tonight by God's love and this song

Restless by Audrey Assad:
You dwell in the songs that we are singing
Rising to the Heavens, rising to Your heart, Your heart
Our praises filling up the spaces
In between and frailty and everything You are
You are the keeper of my heart

And I'm restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
I'm restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
Oh God, I wanna rest in You

Oh, speak now for my soul is listening
Say that You have saved me, whisper in the dark
'Cause I know You're more than my salvation
Without You I am hopeless, tell me who You are
You are the keeper of my heart
You are the keeper of my heart

And I'm restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
I'm restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
I wanna rest in You

Still my heart hold me close
Let me hear a still small voice
Let it grow, let it rise
Into a shout, into a cry

Still my heart hold me close
Let me hear a still small voice
Let it grow, let it rise
Into a shout, into a cry

And I'm restless, I'm restless
'Til I rest in You, let me rest in You
I'm restless, so restless
'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You
Oh God, I will rest in You

With a ocean breeze blowing and sand between my toes I find the path leads me to my family...

So the title this time leads to my weekend once again....
I went to a family reunion at the beach for the Lowe Family...the tree would look like this
                  Thomas Lawerence Lowe - Ida Hutchison Lowe:
                            My Great Great Grandparents
                         Gano Harold Hall - Ida Lowe Hall:
                                My Great Grandparents
                      Russell Cole(R.C) Lee Jr. - Betty Hall Lee:
                                      My Grandparents
                    Russell Cole(Rusty) Lee III - Beverly Cato Lee:
                                          My Parents
Anyways I got to help my Mommaw finnish putting together the scrapbook I got to see pictures I had never seen in my entire life of my Great Great Grandparents and even my Great Grandparents that I had never seen. Over all it was a great weekend.


I was very lucky when I was born I had all 4 of my great grandparents on my Dad's side. The last one passed away when I was a College Freshman so growing up I got to know all of them. The one person I want to talk about though is very special to me and that is my Great Grandmother Ida Lowe Hall or as we called her Nannie Hall. She was a special lady she raised 5 children...4 girls and 1 boy. She loved to cook and she certianly loved her family. My Nannie Hall was a mere 5'1 and a very small lady who married my Papaw Hall who was a towering 6'3" at the age of 19. She loved to bake and cook for her family and she was most happiest with everyone of us around her. The originally lived in High Point,NC and eventually moved to a farm in Level Cross. I loved spending time at there house it always smelled of cookies and homemade goods, fresh grass and flowers and the smell of there house in my memory I remember these. I loved this little short old lady she was my great grandmother who had strength and stamena, and wasn’t afraid to love you. She always gave you a hug whether you were family or anybody that’s just the way she was. I like to think somewhere deep down that she is where I get my giving spirit from to love others. She was a Christian woman going to church every Sunday till she passed away. Sadly when I was in the 4^th grade she was diagnosed with non hodgskin lymphoma and couple months later died from the cancer and she fought it to the very end. I love that I got to know her but I also hate that she didn't live longer. I have found after I went to college that I love to bake and so did she I never really got to bake with her I dream sometimes that I am cooking with her in her kitchen teaching me how to bake those cookies just like she did and make them taste great. I spent a lot of Sunday's as a child with them at there house and have very found memories of those days. The smell of  fresh grass,flowers and freshly baked cookies always takes me back to her kitchen somehow where she gives me a hug and cookie and tells me to go play out in the yard. I love looking at these memories it takes me back to a place and time...back to my Nannie Hall's arms.


I like to think that she would be proud of the woman I have become...somewhat like she:
strong and confident
loving and giving
with a love of her family
and a love to bake...
until next time...

Dancing in the street in a place that feels like home...

So this post is dedicated to my Gardner-Webb Girls...

These girls in this picture are the one's I spent most of my weekend with and what a great weekend it was so much fun.they all put smiles on my faces and are like my little sisters and some of my best friends. We did lots of fun things this weekend one of them having to do with the the title of my blog today.

Just to mention a few: we hung out, chatted for hours, watched the movie "The Holiday", made puppy chow and dinner, we went to cookout twice, jammed out to music in the car and in the dorm, we danced in the street to Lady Gaga at one a.m., we worshiped at church, went to walmart, went shopping at the outlets, and we bought and traded silly bands (I know we are all in our 20's so it's a little funny).

The weekend for me was not only a reminder of why my college years were so awesome, but also what great friends I made and still have here it was very theraputic for my soul. I love these girls with all my heart and soul. If I was having a bad day or needed to talk then they were there to brighten my smile and listen to what I had to say, and vice versa I have tried to do that for them as well. 



It was great being back this weekend as the last post said in a place where my heart feels at home, but also it was a little weird. After living in Greensboro for the last four and half months it's as a friend said you feel as if you have one foot in one place and the other one in another. Being back on campus was a weird feeling because I felt like I had left my heart in Boiling Springs but yet it's here to in Greensboro too. It feels though now that I am back home that once again I have left my heart there. It was just different going back to visit now that I have graduated. I still have that feeling of not knowing where I belong or where I am ment to be. Being there with those girls I don't feel that as much as I do when I am here, but who knows why I feel that way when I am on that campus or around them. Maybe I just feel more at home there, but I also have learned more about myself from my college years at Gardner-Webb. I learned to love my body more to be happy with who I am no matter what people tell me. I also learned through an experience I had at GWU that I shouldn't beat my own self up and that by doing that I was breaking my own heart in the long run. From that experince I learned to love myself more than to worry about the past, and that hopefully that will help me in the future. The lessons I gained from my years there are worth there wait in gold to me everyday. The weekend was a great one over all and I end it with a the dedication I started with at the beginning of the post.

To my Gardner-Webb Girls: may you know how wonderful and beautiful you are inside and out,may you know how much you make me smile and how much you make my heart proud to be your friend, may you know how strong you are and how that show's me I can be strong.may you know that the love you show me allows me to love people more in return. I treasure your friendship and I love you girls!

When your heart longs to be somewhere that feels like home...

So tomorrow I am going to visit the University I graduated from to see some friends. The reason for the title is because for the last five years of my life it has been my home. Boiling Springs felt like home it still does my heart still longs to be there just my heart longed to be here in Greensboro when I lived there almost as if I was home sick. Now that I live in Greensboro I am homesick for Boiling Springs. Maybe it's because my college years are over but some how I don't think it's that.Part of that place helped me become the woman I am today but it also helped me to grow in my faith and develop friends that will last a lifetime. The memories I made there were wonderful and this trip for me really is a chance to return to see the girls who are like my little sisters, and of course my friends. I miss them the most that is what I really am going back for. I am excited to see them and see how they are doing. Until then my heart will still be longing  to be somewhere that feels like home even if I am only there for the weekend...

Going to the Chapel and there going to get married....

So on this first day of September there are lots of things going on this coming weekend...
This weekend my beautiful best friend is marrying the love of her life...I am so excited for them. Allthough I am not married and all three of my best friends are it doesn't discourage me. It actually makes me happy and encourages me. It makes me happy to see them happy and have found men who love them for who they are. I also said that it encouraged me...and that's the truth allthough I have great examples from my Grandparents,Aunts and Uncles, Parents, and Family friends....they are all older than me I didn't get to see what there relationship looked like when they were younger. So the best examples for me are my three best friends and there husbands/future husbands. I can see through them how a man is supposed to treat and love a woman. I can also see what a great example of a young marriage looks like and allthough each is different for each couple it is still a great example. I do sometimes miss the fact that they all have someone in there lives even though I don't....I know that I will find him one day just as he will me but I will wait paitently till that times comes it's just another thing that's appart of God's timing. This weekend though will be a lot of fun as weddings always are. Until next time hopefully I will be boquetless...